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I’m only a teenager and have been suffering from OCD for a few years now. It’s warped into different things such as irrelevent worries to phobias. Now, it’s changed into worrying about HIV and getting pregnant. I have many issues relating to OCD but using the bathroom is probably the most serious. I have such a strong fear of getting HIV and getting pregnant that using the bathroom makes me worry. I will sometimes go through a whole roll of toilet paper because I have to make sure that it doesn’t touch anything such as a towel, the garbage, or the sink if I think that anything might have blood or semen on it. I also have to make sure I wash my hands before I use the bathroom or take a shower, and that in itself is a time consuming task. I sometimes take up to 10 minutes just using the bathroom and it really makes me frustrated. I just want to just say no to my OCD behaviour and worries but I just can’t manage. When I do manage to resist falling into OCD behaviour, it ends up in me worrying for days that I might have HIV or gotten pregnant. I know in my mind that this is irrelevant and that I shouldn’t be letting my fears take hold of me. But as a person living with OCD, That is hardly a possible thing to do. Commen sense just doesn’t seem to be reasonable. I want to get help but in the meantime I want to be able to say no to some of my OCD behaviours. It’s so difficult to do and I just can’t seem to take a hold of my OCD. In the end, OCD takes a old of me. It’s a cycle that lasts for the whole day, and dictates most of the things I do everyday. If anybody has had similar experiences or is living with OCD that is similar to mine, as well as any suggestions that may help me get over my OCD, it would be greatly appreciated! Thanks
Talk to Mum about it and She might take you to the doctors, who will probably send you to a good therapist, It can be embarrassing talking to someone about it, but Sure as hell it will help you overcome this.

There could be a number of things causing this such as stress.

It is not that likely that will be get pregnant just by touching semen and touching your lady bits, Because sperm can live up to three days in a woman and die more quickly when Out of a woman.

I once heard a ridiculous story about a 14 year old who got pregnant after she bathed in the same water as her dad who presumably masturbated. This Story is NOT true, and if it was there would be lots of news coverage.

It is impossible to get pregnant or STI’s if you are a virgin!

My mom suffers from OCD and has for several years now. She thinks everything is completely filthy when it’s sparkling and spotless in our house. She’ll tell me to clean the house and after I’ve already slaved away for hours on end. She makes me do it all over again because she says it’s not good enough. Today is my boyfriend and I’s three year anniversary and she’s keeping me at home cleaning after I already cleaned it twice yesterday and the day before. If I don’t do it, she goes absolutely insane and verbally abuses me/threatens me/slaps me. Help?

You know, a lot of what you should do is dependent on your age and you didn’t say how old you are. If you’re an older teenager, say 16 or up, I would just go with your boyfriend and then call your mom and tell her it’s you and your boyfriend’s anniversary, that you have cleaned the house even beyond her OCD expectations and you’ll be home later, and just suffer the consequences. How bad can it be, more cleaning? Look, your mom obviously needs help. She’s a bit crazy. So, I don’t know what it will take, but maybe you can talk with a relative and see if maybe they can intervene for you. And you know, if it’s not clean to her satisfaction then she can always clean it herself.

Hi, i’m a 20 year old girl and i suffer from OCD, i’ve had OCD since i was about 11 years old, it’s went from bad to good, to worse, to even more worse, to really great and so on etc, the thing is, now i’m 20 i’ve really battled with it all my life and finally i’m in a really good place, but it’s obviouslly still there but it’s controlable, but what’s happened the past 2 years i don’t know, i’ve been going out with my boyfriend for 2 and a bit years now, i met him when i was 18 and everything was great and fine, but what seemed just a little " habbit " further down the line, has now literally turned into my OCD and intrusive thoughts and it’s jelousy and i have never ever EVER in my life been that sort of person, it’s quite hard to explain but it’s like, it’s really getting to the point now where we can’t even watch the tv and it’s so sad because i love him dearly and don’t want to loose him.

He trys to understand but sometimes cant which is obvious and he gets frustrated. It used to be a silly little thought in my head thinking " imagine if i become one of those really jelous people" i duno just a stupid thing, but i feel because of that, it’s happened. If we’re in the car and i see a girl about 14 mile away my heart beats a little faster and i get these horrid thoughts that he is "staring" at her and i know it’s a problem because its that extreme, and i end up calling him a name like " your a total pig " like really snap out of the blue nasty comments, but it just isn’t the type of person i am. We can’t really go anywhere in public, watch films, tv talk or socialise to other groups or couples and i am really in despair now because i know its OCD and fear mixed in with it, i get horrible intrsuive thoughts about him cheating and secretlly staring at other girls when he just isn’t doing it and i hate myself for this, it’s like if im in the house and call him and i hear the tv in the background i get paranoid thoughts that hes watching films or tv for the "girls" in them which is just plain crazy, i know, i ‘ll admit this, and other times it’s resorted to physical violence, i get so rash and panic and stuff it’s horrible that i slapped him in the face whilst he was driving because i thought he was " having a sly look " as i put it to him, it’s so painful and it’s a terrible habbit that’s now getting way out of control and thoughts etc, it’s like it’s my new OCD, e.g ( My intrusive thoughts = Getting my boyfriend to justify something in an argument until i feel completely satisfied and it’s been " neautralised" then i’ll feel better ) That’s another thing with the jelousy aswell as the other stuff.

I want to get cognitive theorpy but i feel embaressed to go to my usual shrink and now bring up a new issue " jelousy". This all might seem crazy but if anyone knows a solution or has been through this at all and can some what hel i’d be really grateful.

Many Thanks

i suffer from ocd too and it hurts and effects my life as well,
but we have to live life, if your bf is trying to understand talk to him and tell him how you feel.
my bf deals with me having ocd and i know its hard for them trying to understand.
but i know that you can overcome it be more confident and stay strong,
if hes been with you that long then you know that he cares for you and wants was best for you.
try to trust him

My friends have been saying i have OCD for a while now and i wasn’t so sure but when i think through all of my unusual behaviour, I cant help but to wonder, do i?

I always have to check my plate, bowl, cup, spoon etc for any marks, i smell them then i double check there is nothing on them before suing them.

If anything wet touches me such as water i have to immediately wipe it off, or if i have been kissed i wipe it off because i cant stand the feel of it.

Everything has to be symmetrical for me, when i was putting up christmas decorations with my dad i had to take over in the end because it was really annoying me that everything was not perfectly symmetrical and in place.

When i listen to music i always count the beats to make sure it goes in even numbers x]

I am always clearing my throat and blowing my nose because i always feel something is there and i cant stand it!

Whenever someone has used the white board and they clean it, i always look to see if they have cleaned every line and dot off otherwise it annoys me to the point where i have to get up in front of class and just clean it myself.

But i am not a neat freak though my mother said that i cant be OCD because my room is a mess and i always leave a mess in the house like leaving my cups around and wrappers XP

What do you think?

I have MAJOR OCD and my room is a disaster! I"m a slob but everything with me has to be even and the right side always has to be bigger or higher and whatever then the left. Many different things like that just go on and on. You have a lot of the same problems that I have: the counting the beats in music, even numbers, the symmetrical everything. OCD isn’t all about neatness. You don’t have to be like Monk to have OCD. That’s just something that bothered them. OCD is about things that shouldn’t bother you, make you CRAZY! It’s different for every person. Not just the same things bother you. A mess doesn’t bother you, that’s good. But OCD interferes with your life. OCD usually effects every move you make, every thought you think, every single thing there is. YOu can always find SOMETHING. If you think this, you may have OCD. My guess is that you do.

If you have anything you want to ask or talk to me about, just IM me or email me

I’ve been in a bit of a pickle lately. My girlfriend and I (and possibly soon to be not) have been together for about 9 months now. 3 months ago she became obsessed in an endless cycle of study which ended with her last exam this week. Through all of that she has been pushing her friends out the way and becoming frustrated that I won’t leave her alone. I was continually worried that I wasn’t doing anything to help her feel better, not realising that by actually distracting her I was making things worse and she now hates me.

What I can’t deny is that as our relationship slowly broke apart, I was obsessed with the little things. Kisses on the ends of text messages, not receiving a reply quickly, whether she was online or not, whether she was ignoring me and more importantly, whether or not she was ok. I’ve had to go round her back to find out that she has OCD symptoms. I now question whether my anxiety causes mine in our relationship, or whether it is the other way round.

All of this feeds my anxiety but I can’t help but think that if I wasn’t so obsessed I wouldn’t be anxious. I guess I just really want to know where to go from here as we have both annoyed each other so much, it’s like we’ve reached the point of no return. I’m not going to contact her between now and Tuesday and then I think she will end it. She’s made it pretty clear, I just refuse to accept that knowing how she’s been behaving.

You’ll recover eventually, my brother had a girlfriend for…just shy of 11 months when she broke up with him, he felt better within the next few days. You might just be a bit more sensitive and it’s taking a while longer than normal for you to adapt to these things, even thought she didn’t exactly "break up with you". I don’t necessarily think you have OCD, since from your information you never said anything about other small things that bother you.

As for "where to go from here", try to keep out of contact with her bit-by-bit, talk to her just somewhat less until you reach a point where you know she’s more comfortable as well.

Im 14 From Uk
Im Going InTo 4th Year In September
I Havnt Left My House Scinse June Last Year
(Besides Goibg To Shop Or Skool)
Anyway I Have No Friends Outside Skool & Now Its End Of The Year When Every1 Is Out On Holiday & Yet Again Im Going To Spend Another Summer Like A Loner (Not That I Wanna)

Its Just I Am Usally A Bright Hyper Boy But Recently Because Im Not Doing Stuff Ive Started To Go Weird

Ive Became Anerixic (Which My Mum Doesnt Know About)
(I Have Got Bi-polor)(Now OCD)
Im Going Crazy!
I Just Cant Seem To Left My Head Up High Anymore

When i look in The Mirror I Know longer c that cheerful teen everone once saw. Just A fat, ugly,freak & loner.

I Just cant stand havin no1 around anymore no friends or nonthing.
So i might just starve myself to death b/c 2 b honest the past year of my life has sucked & i dont really feel like goin through with my life no more

(I dont want any1 to say anything like dont worry it will get better Cuz IT WONT!

Maybe If i starve myself i wont b in my huz for 64 days & Maybe i might get some attention being in hospital….

This idea may sound too simple, but it has worked for me and is changing my life.

Take a pen and sheet of paper and write just one thing you are grateful for. It can be anything big or small.

Do this again…one more thing you are grateful for…again…and again.

Keep doing this.

It’s not that the situation around you will change so much as your perspective on yourself. When you realize the infinite number of things you have to be grateful for you will see the magnificent abundance that is in your life. You will see how much you have in your life and how much you have to offer the world. You don’t have to feel so small, lonely and isolated. Your gifts are so great and beyond measure. You just need to take stock of what you have more than on your shortcomings and what you lack.

My life situation has been miserable until I started practicing gratitude. I thought I was an empty failure and had nothing to give until I started to give thanks for the countless blessings I have. Now, I’m finding meaning and purpose through my suffering and using my painful experiences to help others such as yourself.

I hope this is of some comfort to you. Best wishes .

I really cant take it anymore. All these thoughts of dying. And killing people are making me sad 24/7 i feel tired because i wake up ALL the time at night because i cant sleep. Its really making me depressed. Im only 14 years old and this is not life. Im getting tortured in my own head. It feels like im going to lose controll of my body any moment and murder my loved ones. When i think of these thoughts its like a VIVED day dream and its SOOO REAL! and i feel like i can break out crying any second because i cant get it out of my head… i lock the pets out of my room because i feel like i will kill them in my sleep or black out and murder them. I just cant take this anymore. my therapist doesnt want to prescribe my medicine because im to young. and i seriosuly cant take this anymore… my chest achs like CRAZY and my back and kneck are FULL of knots and i dont want to eat because i lose my apitite from these crazy thoughts.. i just want to be my self. i sleep durring school and fail because i cant sleep anymore. i just wake up randomly at night. I keep having vivid flashbacks that make me feel as bad as i did when it really happend. i dream that i die and it is horrible. i live in a fear of death that wont go away. And the obbsestion WONT come out of my head and it is HORRIBLE… i write things down but half way i threw my book down and started to cry… how can i live like this? i feel like shit everyday. i gave up my friends because i somtimes think they are gonna hurt me somehow.. i sleep durring the day because im always tired… i even feel tired when i wake up and so. i just want the old me back. I keep having thoughts of dying that wont stop and i feel like it wont stop till i die. ITS HORRIBLE… this is NOT life im only 14 i should be having fun… im not being over dramatic i cry almost everyday… i am shaking because i have bad anxiety and i cant calm my self down because when i think of good thoughts it pops right out coz how i feel. when i feel like shit i think like shit and it is never ending. I feel like life right now is hell and i hate it so much. i hate living and i feel like im dying. I feel like im gonna pass out sleeping any second and i have a feeling of hate and anger and sadness. One time i felt good for once but that was only 10 minutes i was laughing horribly and couldnt stop because i was like ocd-free then i felt like crap again. I feel like i can break out crying any second. its hard holding it back. i just cant take it… i want pills because my doctor said it works but he doesnt want to give it to me because its risky at my age. I feel like to punch a wall and put a 1000000000000000000 holes anywhere to take out my mad and sadness…if i do somthing wrong a little bit i feel breaking point and cant get it out of my head till i cry and till i cry i feel a little better and this is NOT LIFE… i feel like its a nightmare that wont end !!!!!

please help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant take it anymore!!!

If you are just seeing a therapist then try going to a psychiatrist for children. I have heard of 7 year olds on oprah who take medication for schizophrenia so I don’t know why it’s unsafe for you at 14. I would try to find a new psychiatrist.
You can try exercise to help your depression. Join a team sport and socialize with people. Try meditation as well maybe that will calm you down.

…ok I have always had ocd since i was young, now i am 30 years old, i always had some paranoid thoughts which i later forgot and did not bother me, or i had to touch something like for 3 times, or tap my foot 3 times etc, i was happily in a relationship for 7 years, well i have always been a pesimist and stuff but OCD did not govern my life, i worked etc, last november i came through a very anxious period of my life, i thought i was seriously ill and i was so anxious i couldnt sleep at nights, i was crying all day long, i couldnt work etc, after 2 months i did ALL medical tests turned out i was all OK and that everything was in my mind (due to being hypochondriac and ocd of course), however after this period i think i startd losing it, my OCD got in another phase like schizo, i was like " what if others dont exist and i am alone in the world" i was crying and didnt want to see anyone , then i was like " what if i am a cat" and a cat meowed and i thought what if i am a cat and started worrying and stuff, which i know its bullshit but i am so phobic and i get influenced so much and then started worrying, then i always encountered the number 13 an idea came to my mind "what if only me my mother and my bf exist in the world ‘ ?? or tha last weekend my bf went for a heart exam, and when i called another lady cam up at the phone (i had called a wrong number) then i called again and he replied to me that everything was ok and stuff, but in that same evening i was like " what if my bf is dead and i am imagining i see him "???? and then i become again anxious , my mind is like so fvked up , i know all this is bullsh!it, but i am always doubting what if and what if , i dont think i can handle this anymore, i d liketo put an end to my life but i dont want to hurt my mum, my bf and my sisters who adore me but they cant understand the hell i am going through every single day, i am on effexor which has really improved me but then i am like ok for 10 days and all of a sudden a new thought comes up and makes me worse than before ….. the psychiatrist prescribed yesterday some anafranil too, he says dont worry you are way too phobic, but i think i am losing it , i somethimes wish i had a physical illness rather than this sh!t….. i have everything in my life, my job, my bf, friends , car (i had all this for granted before ) and now i can not enjoy ANYTHING anymore, the life is meaningless ………thanks for any words of encouragement and sorry for the mistakes in the english language is not my mother tongue

regards
Alexandros from Greece …. .

You certainly have a lot on your plate, don’t you? You’ve obviously dealt with OCD over 20 years, & seem to be handling THAT pretty well. I mean well enough to where (like you said) you have a bf, job, car & family that "adores" you! That’s saying a LOT!

You must be under a Psychiatrist’s care, due to the 2 meds you mentioned, which, by the way, work very well together. If you don’t currently have one, I strongly suggest you see a therapist or counselor in the mental health field. Maybe your Dr. can suggest ones he feels are good. If you’re already seeing one, possibly find another if you are not having good results.

It sounds like you might have schizo-affective disorder, however, your Dr. should be assessing you for everything when he/she sees you. Some psychiatrists manage medication ONLY. You need a professional to TALK to on a consistent basis. Your anxiety level is excessively high which might indicate anti-anxiety medication. This may help with the suicidal ideation you mentioned. Bottom line - your Dr. and therapist NEED to be aware of all these symptoms you’ve mentioned, from which you are suffering.

NO one should have to endure the mental pain you’ve described. You need support. If your family doesn’t understand, find a support group for which you are diagnosed. No, find one ANYWAY. If not a group to physically attend (which is most effective), then same type group on-line! Strong support is SO important! You have good insight into your affliction, so USE it verbally with your DR.! If you feel HE doesn’t understand, you have a right to see a different Dr. for a fresh perspective.

Look how far you have come from early on. YOU are your best advocate. Be strong, positive & assertive & work hard at getting even better. You GO girl! You can do it!

I’m 17, and Gay. and have had four relationships. my first one was excellent. but he ended it with me, for reasons unknown. my second one was the same as the first. Now my third one is where my OCD begins to play into my relationship.

i was happy for about the first month. and then one day i was down, and he texted me. and i didn’t feel like talking to him. and i had an intrusive thought "what if me not wanting to talk to him means i don’t love him" and i freaked. and then from then on, i over analyzed things, and saw everything in a negative light, and the intrusive thoughts kept coming. it got so bad that i had to end it with him. i was unknowingly letting my OCD attack my relationship. i never realized it was going that route. i thought what i was thinking was real. on the sidelines though all three of my past relationships, there was one boy that i used to hang out with so much. i really liked him, and i knew he liked me, but i also knew that he was unsure of his sexuality. so i never made a move. then two weeks ago, he came out to me. and i had ended the relationship about a week earlier. i then proceeded to plot out how i was going to ask him out. all that time though i had this nagging fear that the same thing might happen with this one as it did with my ex. i really liked this boy. so i was hesitant to commit to him. but i did. the anxiety is much less with him, then it ever was. but tonight was the focal point. i was down. and he messaged me. and the same fear came back, not nearly as bad. but there nonetheless. i truly love this boy, and i want him forever. i do NOT want my OCD to screw this one up. i am currently not in therapy, or on any medication. but not soon enough. and i feel the distancing happening again. i cry over having these feelings, because i never want to lose him. but i never want to suffer like i did with my ex. i really have no idea what to do, i can get medication. but i love this boy so strongly. i just want to cry about this, because i keep having intrusive thoughts constantly about him. "just leave him" "how would i break up with him" "i don’t want to talk to him right now, do i really love him" "why am i not home or at his house talking to him" and all this other stuff. i really love him and i want him forever. but my OCD is beginning to kill another one. please help me. i cannot let this happen.

FIRST

tell your SO that you have OCD, and that sometimes it takes you and your emotions over.
tell him the sort of things you start thinking. Be honest with him. Tell him how this has destroyed your relationships before.

THEN see a psychologist or psychiatrist to get Meds and training in what to do when the OCD starts taking over your brain again.

I seriously think I have ocd… I used to excessively wash my hands (they became red and chapped), and now I count and organize things.

ocd things I do:
count random things. (colors in a room, colors on people’s clothes, lines dividing lanes on the road, windows on a building, etc. it has to be an even number in the end or I count again.)
Organize little things such as: things on my desk, books on my bookshelf (from smallest to largest), I put things in alphabetical order, etc.
I clean off my eraser. I’m so frickin serious. Like if it has a mark on it from erasing, I erase on something clean to remove the mark.

I do about more things, but too many to list.

Unless you have horrible anxiety (that takes up an hour of your day everyday) with these quirks, you don’t have OCD. OCD is a real disorder and is a lot different then quirks.

I have been diagnosed with OCD and so here it is:
Obsessions:
FEARING DEATH- that’s the big one because it causes all my compulsions
fearing that I’m going to hurt someone
and also you know how some people have numbers with OCD well I have letters. Letters non stop go though my mind. It may not sound bad but it’s horrible. It go so bad that my doctor had to put me on medicine.

Compulsions:
washing my hands about 20 times a day
holding my breath in ‘contaminated’ areas
having to touch objects just right
having to place objects just right
constantly erasing words because they ‘don’t look right’
only stepping on certain ‘good’ spaces on the floor
things have to be symmetrical (get hit in one arm have to hit myself in the other)
no sharing food or drinks. period.
doors have to be all the way open or all the way closed