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*I no this is extremely long and ur probably busy, but I would really appreciate it if you’d read and answer my question because I really need ur help. Thank you!

K so a few weeks ago my friend was was telling me how she has obsessive compulsive disorder and although I’ve heard the name many times, I never really knew what it was. So I decided to do some research. The more research I did, the more I started to thinknI have OCD. I was on this site reading people’s real-life stories and mine doesn’t seem that bad (If I have it at all) but I think it would be best to be diagnosed with it now before it takes over my life. Here are some of the symptoms I have. As far as I know these are OCD symptoms, but please correct me if I’m wrong

-when I was about 7 or 8 I would sometimes think "what if i stuck my finger between those two little prongs on an electrical cord and plugged it in and electrocuted myself" it was weird because I had this urge to do it kinda but I didn’t want to and I couldn’t explain why I wa even thinking this and I remember being terrified I would do it.

-everything must be in a specific order/arranged perfectly. For example, I won’t eat a hot dog if the toppings aren’t in the correct order (ketchup, musturd, relish) and same with tacos (beef, salsa, sour cream, cheese, tomatoe, tettuce). I also organize things by colours such as the cloths in my closet (pink, red, orange, yellow, green, light blue, dark blue, purple, magenta, brown [darkest to lightest], white, grey [lightest to darkest], black) and I’ll spend hours arranging and rearranging books by series, author, genre, size,etc. The most recent example I have of random organization is my strep pills. I have strep so I got medication for it and I put them in one of those little daily pill things. I put three in each day and I arranged them so the three in Sunday had the yellow end facing me and the ones in Monday had the red end facing me and so on.

-sometimes I’ll just get random violent urges. Like I’ll be holding my cat and I’ll realize just how easy it would be to snap her leg. It’s like with the plug thing. I dont want to but in scared I might. That’s why reading more about OCD is good cuz I found out ppl with OCD don’t act on these. This Aldo started around when I was 8 but never rly went away.

-when I feel there’s something wrong with my appearance one day (ex. A zit, bad hair day) and I walk down the school hallway I feel like people are staring at me and judging me. Like just this Friday that happened to me. I kept looking at the ground and walking faster and faster desperatly needing to get to my locker where I would feel safe. I don’t think I rly had this sense of "what the hells happening to me?" like some ppl seem to, in fact, until I researched symptoms of OCD I never thought there was anything wrong with me. I just genuinly thought ppl were staring at me cuz I had a zit.

-as a child I would go to the mall with my mom and only step on the white tiles. My mom would get mad at me bc I would run into ppl and thought it was just me playing sone kind of silly game but now I realize it was OCD. That explains why it made me so anxious to step on the blue tiles too. Even now when I’m walking home from school I’ll watch my footsteps carefully and count how it takes three squares between the times I step on the crack and I step on it with my right foot. If this gets messed up someone I have to re-evaluate and may find it now takes two squares and with my left foot. Sometimes I count tiles in the floor pattern in my school and get annoyed when one rectangle has 12 tiles in it and one has 11. Sometimes I count them again and again to make sure I’m positive they aren’t symmetrical.

-I can’t stand not having the door closed. Sometimes I will loom over my shoulder multiple times and still not be satisfied that it’s closed. It even bugs mebwhen someone leaves a door open on tv.

-I suppose I have a slight germaphobia but not in the typical sense. Most ppl will clean their room until it’s spotless. I don’t like clearing it at all because the stuff on the floor is dirty. Like I’ll tidy up the area of the room that I walk in because that’s mostly recent stuff, but honestly that other stuffs been their for like a year so I hate touching it fir fear that it’s crawling with dirt and bugs.

-idk if this has anything to do with OCD but i tend to become way to obsessed with things way to quickly. For example, Adam lambert. I heard his song "whataya want from me" on the radio and added it to my list of songs to download. So one morning I was going thro
my list and was playing music videos cuz I was sick of my old music but too lazy to download new and I realized I’d forgotten just how cute he was and I started reseRchinh stuff about him and downloaded a bunch of his songs and listening to them non stop. (8 hrs in one day listening to nothing but his music and I did that everyday for aweek) so yea I’m completely obsessed with
just remembered one more thing!:

-when I go to the mall, I always buy food. Like it’s uncontrollable. I always swear to not spend money on food but next thing I no, 60 dollars down the drain. The only way I canstop from buying food at the mall is to not bring money. I don’t no if that counts but that seems odd to me.

-I don’t no if this is one either but I eat. I wat all the time. Even when I’m not hungry. And I’m not bored either and I can’t seem to think of a reason why I’m eating. Sometimes I just wanna eat. Like I’ll be watching a half our tv show and I’ll get up 4 tines during that show to either get something to eat or look for something and come back to the couch empty handend. I will often look throught cupboards/fridge, etc looking for food to make sure I didn’t miss anything although I think everyone does that to some degree although usually it’s on a more subconsious level.
It wasnt shyness btw. It was paranoia that everyone was staring at me and judging me and I had to get away and it was very distressing because I couldn’t explain it.

Not all your symptoms sound like OCD behavior. E.g. you being shy and trying to run away sounds more like social anxiety or perhaps just a side effect of being an anxious person. Your germ phobia doesn’t sound like the typical OCD to me. However, all other symptoms, the violence, the arrangement, the tiles, etc. are very typical of OCD. The point I’m getting to is not that you don’t have OCD. You most likely do have it, but you should keep in mind that not all bad things and all anxiety is due to having OCD. Given all this, you are still young. You could learn to manage and overcome this anxiety without medication. Of course, if a specialist disagrees, they are the ones that know best. Your next step is discussing this with your parents and seeking help from a competent clinical psychologist specialized in Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy and Exposure and Response Prevention.

There are a few ways to get my attention and I suppose one is to use a phrases like ‘Penises shaped like asparagus.’ Josh Drescher, Mythic’s associate producer on the recently delayed Warhammer Online: Age Of Reckoning, certainly knows how to start a conversation. He’s actually describing some background details of Chaos’ capital, The Inevitable City. It has a name,’ he goes on. ‘But if we said it your eyes would fall out and your, head would explode.’

In explaining WAR, it’s far better to concentrate on what makes it different from ’some other games’ (as the developers like to refer to the obvious competition). Because at first glance, WAR looks a lot like World of Warcraft. Familiarity could be its main hook or its ultimate failing. And it would be a shame either way, as WAR brings a remarkable amount of fresh, original ideas to a genre that’s already calcifying.

Let’s begin with those capital cities. If you played Mythic’s previous MMO, Dark Age of Camelot, you’ll recognize the concept: the ‘end game’ for those who have reached the initial maximum level, 40, will be an enormous push to invade and destroy the enemy’s capital.

Race Hate

Let’s roll back quickly. There are six races: Humans and Chaos, Dark Elves and High Elves, and Greenskins and Dwarves. Each is paired into their starting areas and their race to destroy the opponent’s homelands. There’s no simple way to explain this with words. As you see, you begin away from your city on your own vertical path that interweaves with the progression of your opposing race, until you reach the final stage, the horizontal drive to reach the enemy’s city. This is the most significant part of what Mythic calls ‘Realm vs Realm’.

A typical push to reach the enemy capital will take an entire server of players approximately a week. If they make it, and successfully break through the walls (thus surviving the siege warfare about which we know little at this point, beyond the ability to procure catapults, battering rams, and pots of boiling oil for such encounters), then hundreds of players will besiege the place, destroying landmarks, burning down buildings, and looting the ruins. And this is a real attack. Executive producer Jeff Hickman explains, ‘As you progress through the game, the city grows and changes with you. It’s the foundation for Realm pride’. So capitals will be able to level up as a race performs well. Players will gain Victory Points, which contribute to improving their city. This will not only make things more aesthetically pleasing but open up new areas for questing, new locations to visit, and new scenarios to take part in.

Thus, when the enemy come in and destroy the place, you’ll be starting from scratch again with a dingy, desolate city limited in its scope. It’s not something anyone will want to happen, hence creating an end-game based on realm-wide warfare. These Victory Points trickle down throughout the entire game, meaning a level 1 newb will be aiding the main push from their first actions. The Capital will mean something to you. Hickman points out, ‘The very first quest you get in the Dwarven starting area is, We need to march on the Orc Capital City’. It’s being referred to from the very beginning. You’re thinking, ‘I am in an army, attacking the enemy on a push toward their Capital City’.

Fresh MMO Features

If anything WAR is RvR propaganda. While it goes to enormous lengths to appeal to those for whom Player vs Player (PvP) play is entirely off-putting, the Player vs Everything (PvE) elements are designed to twist your arm enough that by the time you reach the end-game, you’ll have already accidentally taken part in so much Realm vs Realm (RvR) that it will feel natural. That’s not to say you can’t solo much of the game - it’s just, well, you’ll find yourself soloing in a team with surprising frequency.

The aspect of WAR that shows this off the best, and will be the idea that every other MMO will steal from now onward, is the Public Quest. While wandering around locations, killing ten of these, or collecting five of those, you’ll be alerted that you’re in a PQ area. You’ll look around you and see a bunch of players attacking a large number of, let’s say evil bunnies. To join in, you need only start hitting the beasties yourself. There’s no ‘join’ button, no team - you simply take part.

Bunnies killed, this may make way for a group of enemy soldiers and their prisoners to charge from a local cave. Free the prisoners, and the PQ’s final stage would occur. A giant, twenty-foot bunny (seriously, this won’t be in the game) may come stomping from the cave, needing many players attacking it once to be destroyed. Once dead, the PQ is over, and will reset itself shortly. Meanwhile, you’ll be rewarded for your input by a loot award according to how much you helped, combined with a dice roll for who gets the best bits. And it just feels so natural.

Then there’s Scenarios, instanced traditional multiplayer games, like Capture the Flag, that are themed around the areas. There’s Skirmishes, which are more traditional PvP areas. And there’s Keeps, an idea from Dark Age, where guilds can fight for castles, hang their guild banners, and then defend them from jealous oncomers.

This is your Life

All this and we’ve failed to mention the Tome of Knowledge. This is an idea that’s designed to add an extra dimension to PvE play, as well as creating a logical method of telling the story, and providing stats and quest logs. It’s a book that records everything you do, every kill, every encounter, every, er, emote? The Tome contains 12,000 achievements that announce themselves upon their unwitting conclusion, which may be having died 1,000 times or just talking to an NPC who only appears for an hour a day.

But there’s more to it - these unlocks will often open up Tome-unique quests, some even allowing you access to otherwise hidden areas of the game. It’s an OCD dream. Or as Tome designer Carrie Gouskos describes it, ‘The love, happy, fun, cuddly thing above the game’.

With EA money and extended development time, Mythic claims the game is already in good condition to be released. But they want to add more polish, do more testing, and with no pressure from above, they’re taking their sweet time.

Sandra Prior
http://www.articlesbase.com/computer-games-articles/warhammer-online-age-of-reckoning-698280.html

Ok, I always had different thoughts,since i was young afraid of the telephone ! for example if she switches on her mobile phone and i had a phonecall from an unknown number or a number i dont not recognize, i am very scared that someone called for something bad, or that they are after me etc etc etc. also i thought i was alone i nthe world and i was crying and stuff
Lately the last month i have another thing. Ok , I used to have dizzy spells on the past too then got over it, now since 20 days it started as i was working in front of the pc a head spining sensation, from that time i keep thinking abhout dizziness, i wake up in the morning first thing i think is dizziness, i sleep last thing i think is dizziness the result is i am 24/7 lightheaded and dizzy feeling, its not that the room is spining but i feel like my head is moving , i went to the ENT he told me no problem with ears, i think maybe i have MS, brain tumor, encephalitis i am thinking all day about this and i cant think nothing else, i am deprtessed and cry and drink i have so much stresss, i overworkl too at work many hours in front of the pc and i have this constant feeling, qwhen i leave work its better but still there, i have always been hypochondriac all my life since i was young but now i think i want to end take pills i dont know i cant stand this anymore, i said to the doc to do an MRI but he said he doesnt think i should do it … what if its tumor ? what if its encephalitis ??? what if its toxoplasmosis? or leuchemia ??? or cancer ??? i read in the internet all symptoms and i think i have it…. i also suffer from OCD ….. any advice on how not to think this 24/7 appreciated, thanks ! i have always been a hypochondriac since i was young, for example if i had a lump on the head i weas crying thinking its brain tumor, if i pee a lot i think i have nefropathy, now this 24/7 pressure back of the head and dizziness has conquered my life i live in a constant fear i am like a zombie, i take my temperature 24/24 thinking i have fever, my life is ended any help ? i also take my temperature 24/24, i have 36,6 and i am scared to death !!!! then i read in the internet that if you have lauchemia you vomit now all the time i think i am nausating ….

When I am at work in front of the pc the dizziness is unbearable, when i leave work i am kinda better and when i drink 2-3 whiskeys i am muc hbetter , everyone tells me these symptoms are psychosomatic, is that true ???

If the dizziness is accompanied by chest pains, shortness of breath, excessive sweating, weakness , severe nausea and/or rapid heart beat. Please seek immediate medical attention. This could be sign of something more serious such as a heart attack! Good luck

Ok, I always had different thoughts,since i was young afraid of the telephone ! for example if she switches on her mobile phone and i had a phonecall from an unknown number or a number i dont not recognize, i am very scared that someone called for something bad, or that they are after me etc etc etc. also i thought i was alone i nthe world and i was crying and stuff
Lately the last month i have another thing. Ok , I used to have dizzy spells on the past too then got over it, now since 20 days it started as i was working in front of the pc a head spining sensation, from that time i keep thinking abhout dizziness, i wake up in the morning first thing i think is dizziness, i sleep last thing i think is dizziness the result is i am 24/7 lightheaded and dizzy feeling, its not that the room is spining but i feel like my head is moving , i went to the ENT he told me no problem with ears, i think maybe i have MS, brain tumor, encephalitis i am thinking all day about this and i cant think nothing else, i am deprtessed and cry and drink i have so much stresss, i overworkl too at work many hours in front of the pc and i have this constant feeling, qwhen i leave work its better but still there, i have always been hypochondriac all my life since i was young but now i think i want to end take pills i dont know i cant stand this anymore, i said to the doc to do an MRI but he said he doesnt think i should do it … what if its tumor ? what if its encephalitis ??? what if its toxoplasmosis? or leuchemia ??? or cancer ??? i read in the internet all symptoms and i think i have it…. i also suffer from OCD ….. any advice on how not to think this 24/7 appreciated, thanks ! i have always been a hypochondriac since i was young, for example if i had a lump on the head i weas crying thinking its brain tumor, if i pee a lot i think i have nefropathy, now this 24/7 pressure back of the head and dizziness has conquered my life i live in a constant fear i am like a zombie, i take my temperature 24/24 thinking i have fever, my life is ended any help ? i also take my temperature 24/24, i have 36,6 and i am scared to death !!!! today i got my temperature and it was 37 !!! now i think i have aids or something , my stomach is so tight, i am crying because i think its fever.l… i had cbc (blood test) everything was perfect my doctor told me that i am very stressed and anxious ….. why is my temperature 37 then ????
, everyone tells me these symptoms are psychosomatic, ??? do you think i should end my life ?? icant stand this anymore…. :(((

no i don’t think you should end your life~but i really think you need to get a hobby besides your alleged illnesses~have you ever considered like volunteering @ a homeless shelter or woman’s center or even a nursing home~i truly believe if you get out in the world & deal w/those less fortunate that you may put some of this energy in a different direction~have you ever thought about the military?? they could help you learn a lot of different things & get your mind focused elsewhere ?

So I don’t do anything too major, but I’ve done some research on OCD and I have now become worried that I am affected by OCD. Symptoms I believe I display are:
1. I constantly check my phone. Even if I am not expecting any calls or texts, I worry someone is trying to get ahold of me.
2. When I am expecting a call or text and the person does not call or text, I start to worry about them. I then proceed to create an elaborate story in my head about how they died or they hate me or something drastic like that. I feel stupid later for thinking such things, but I cannot help it.
3. I constantly think people are mad at me, even if I didn’t do anything wrong. Every time someone I know is upset, I automatically think it’s because of me.
4. For as long as I can remember, I have always thought I have/had/am going to have some deadly disease. Whenever I show even a tiny symptom (cough, rash, late period), I automatically refer to a book of symptoms that I have. If I cannot find this book or am not at home to refer to it, then I instantly go online and search until I believe I have found my disease.
5. Every time I miss my period or my period is late, I automatically start to think that I am pregnant. Even before I became sexually active, I would worry that I was pregnant. I would worry I had been raped and got pregnant.
6. I cannot have anything except the pans on the stove when I am cooking. I worry that anything else will catch on fire, even if the object is on the complete opposite side of the stove.
7. I constantly worry that my car is going to start on fire or have some other major problem.
8. My grammar has to be perfect, and so does my spelling, when I am writing or typing, even on instant messenger or when I am texting.
9. I text constantly. If I am not texting someone, I feel very weird. I start to even feel self-conscious when I am not texting.
10. Coming back to the phone thing from number 1, if I haven’t gotten any texts in about an hour, I worry my phone is not working properly and will restart my phone. If I turn my phone back on and there are still no messages, I will text someone and see if I get a text back.
11. I am a 24 hour Facebooker. I feel the need to know what everyone is doing at all times, and when I have not been on Facebook in a day or more, I start to get upset. I also have Facebook notifications sent to my cell phone so I do not have to constantly be sitting at a computer.
12. Towels have to be folded a certain way. If they are even folded slightly wrong, I have to refold it.
13. I have to pee more than once before I go to bed, in fear that I will wet the bed. I am 19, and do not believe I should have this fear.
14. I always worry someone is going to kidnap or rape me.
15. When I am driving alone, if someone is following closely behind me, I worry they are going to follow me home, or somehow get my car to stop, and kill me. Every time. Guaranteed.
16. I am afraid to use the vacuum cleaner, as I believe it is going to start on fire.
17. When sweeping, I have to get every speck of dirt off the floor, and then I find it neccessary to mop up extremely nasty spots on the floor.
18. When cleaning mirrors or windows, there cannot be any streaks or spots. I will continue cleaning until they are perfect.
19. I spend way too much money. I’m in college, and I spent $400 in one week. I still don’t even remember everything that I bought.
20. I cannot think of anything else right now, but I had to have this end in a 0 or a 5.

Some of your symptoms do resemble those of OCD, but some of them don’t, e.g. spending alot of money. I can’t tell for sure whether or not you have OCD, as it also depends on how much time your compulsions take and how intense your obsessions are. When you are cleaning mirrors or windows and there can’t be any streaks or spots, what is going through you mind and what actually makes you want to continue cleaning until they are perfect? OCD stands for Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder because first the obsession comes and then the compulsion comes. In the case of cleaning mirrors or windows, there has to be a fear (obsession) for the cleaning until all the spots and streaks are gone to become a compulsion. If there is no obsession, (e.g. if I don’t clean the window/mirror perfectly, my dad will die) then there is no compulsion, it’s just being a perfectionist. Some of your symptoms also resemble those of hypochondria. A person with hypochondria is preoccupied with physical health and body. The diagnosis is used when a person during at least 6 months believes, fears or is convinced that he has a serious disease despite medical reassurance. This fear of disease or preoccupation with symptoms is unpleasant, interferes with the patient’s daily life in a negative way and leads to medical examinations and/or treatment. The patient can only temporarily accept assurance that there is no physical explanation to his symptoms. If you think you might have OCD or hypochondria (maybe both), then you should go and schedule an appointment with a therapist. I hope you will be feeling better soon. Good luck and I hope I helped.

so im at my wits end right now and thought id come on this message board to seek some advice. im 25 yrs old and i get strep throat at least 2-3 times a yr. in the past ive done a combination of letting it heal on its own and taking antibiotics. i also suffer severely from OCD and Hypochondria (dont really know if they are related to why i get strep so often but i read somewhere that it was) anyways the ocd and hypochondria have recently spiraled out of control and i find myself obsessing over every possible ailment. i was recently prescribed Zoloft to manage the OCD because on a scale of 1-10 it’s reached about a 20 (and thats not an exagerration) but i’m too scared to take it because i read somewhere that it causes hair loss and im hair obsessed. then today i went to the doctor and found out i had strep and they prescribed amoxicillin but then i read today on this message board that someone took it and experienced hair loss. so i guess what im really asking is which way to go with this. do i take the medicine to rid my system of this so i can get on with my daily life or try to take care of it with natural remedies. ive become completely obsessed with not taking meds because in my twisted mind i think im going to have horrible side effecs esp. when it comes to hair. Please serious answers only. I’m aware I have serious issues but it doesnt make it any easier to cope and I could really use some helpful non judgemental advice before i A.) Go crazy from not taking the Zoloft that was prescribed or B.) Make these strep throat symptoms worst

dude just take the medicine. if you were taking the zoloft like youre supposed to be doing you would realize that the hair loss happens to probably 2% of ppl. at least take the anti biotics. strep sucks. you’ll be glad you did..thats all i can tell you. but i highly doubt you’ll pay any attention to this at all

what are thelives of such people who suffer from anxiety, stress, nightmares and mild ocd. does it damage relationships. does stress in a relationship cause more anxiety and fears that in turn cause more stress for the relationship making it troubled. does this end up being a circle with no end?
how do such people cope? are they good people. can they lead a failry normal life?
is it ok to be friends with such people?

I would consider myself as one of these people, though I’m not an extreme case. I live a really normal life and I have a great family who I’m really close with. It doesn’t damage relationships at all, it’s more of a self-damaging problem for me. The anxiety takes its toll on my energy and how well I can sleep. It causes me nightmares sometimes.

But like I said, it doesn’t affect relationships… It just makes me more needy. I’m constantly needing reassurance, but the more I am aware of it, the more I can fight it and try to keep my mind at ease. I tend to internalize everything and when it builds up I find myself crying alone a lot. I overreact a lot and I tell my close friend and family my problems. They always reassure me that I’ll be fine and they bring me comfort. My relationships are my security and comfort, they aren’t troubled at all.

Yes, it is okay to be friends with such people… The only problem is, they can become dependent. They need security and if you get close, they are going to seek it from you. The problem is self confidence… and close friends can help them become more dependent on themselves. They make great friends because they are extremely loyal. Because of their anxiety, they worry about losing their friends and they will do anything for their friends in order to feel secure in the relationship. It’s hard to explain.

They live normal lives… they just internalize all their problems, which isn’t healthy.

how are the lives of such people who suffer from anxiety, stress, nightmares and mild ocd. does it damage relationships. does stress in a relationship cause more anxiety and fears that in turn cause more stress for the relationship making it troubled. does this end up being a circle with no end?
how do such people cope? are they good people. can they lead a failry normal life?
is it ok to be friends with such people?

I have all of the above and I am in a great relationship. Try talking to a therapist or something. I did and it sure did help alot. When you go to counseling they can help you to get over these things which means getting to the bottom of why you have these things/what makes you do these things. Be open to the person you are with so that they can understand better. Try taking them with you to counseling so that they can ask questions and learn more about these things so that they can help you overcome these things. They are your partner and are there to help you. Don’t let it interfere in your relationship. If it does and you have a guy that really cares about you, he will understand and be there for you no matter what. Good Luck! I hope I helped!

Should you confront the child or stop it? or just ignore it? A few people in my family have it and its one of the most annoying diseases in the whole world, and today I figured that my little brother might have it, how can I address the situation and possibly put an end to it?

Direct your inquiry to the Obsessive/Compulsive Foundation in North Branford, Conn. They can also refer you to someone known to treat the condition.Its too important to discuss thoroughly here.

my brother has ocd and we are at the end of out tether with him no one seems to be able to cope we need professional help he has been to the maudsley in london and nothing seems to work. where can we go from here its making my dad ill please can anybody give me some advice

hypnotherapy
spiritual healing
reiki
problems lie in the subconsious –pills medds –waste of time
Testimonies
Spiritual healing ,Seichim and Reiki healing
Find good therapists in your area /a good spiritulist church
When People speak about their condition and tell of the benefits which they have found by employing the treatments one can only feel humbled .
An interesting article http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/life_and_style/health/alternative_medicine/article4317985.ece

http://www.spiritualhealer.org.uk/

Spiritual healing — study the healing of harry edwards google search
Harry Edwards recalled the case of a young man who, accompanied by a lady, was brought to me for healing. He was in great pain and eaten-up with arthritis. As the healing proceeded, so his pains left him, and his joints began to loosen and become free. When I had finished treating him, it was a real delight to see how wonderfully glad he was to be able to use his legs, feet, arms and hands again… and then he told me: "When I came here, I was convinced no one could help me, and I came only to please my Aunt, who brought me."

You worked a miracle with his father when he was very ill 1983-84 when I wrote to you, but you will be pleased to know he is now working for the Council and lives a fairly normal life.

I’s report is complete - he is 100% fit and will have no trouble in resuming his sporting activities -considering the first reports, this is a miracle. I do not know how I would have managed without your wonderful help.

You and the late Harry Edwards helped me so often and indeed I am still pressing on 18 years after I was expected to die from my last bout of cancer.

I wrote to ask for healing for my sister who was to undergo an operation for aneurysm in the aorta. Her operation was very successful. After 1 day in intensive care and 2 days in progressive care she was back in her own room and has done extremely well. She was allowed home after 7 days when she had been told to expect to be in hospital for 10 to 15 days. Everyone was amazed at her recovery and the surgeon told her she had been a perfect patient. I feel sure the absent healing and our prayers were to a great extent responsible for this wonderful recovery and I thank you most sincerely for your help.

I thought perhaps you would like to have a record of the people you have helped during the time I have been sending reports. M.L. -angina, complete recovery. D. L. -duodenal ulcer, complete healing. B.L. - Angina, complete recovery. P.D. - Leukaemia - apparent full recovery.

On behalf of my mother, daughter and myself may I thank you for the lovely day at your Sanctuary last Tuesday. My mother is so much better it is truly amazing. She can stretch out her arms and even raise them to her head and her walking is much stronger. My daughter was very impressed, too. 1141/6
My condition improved in as much as I now have much more self-confidence and ability to deal with my everyday life. 1145/6
G.S. Good news. Up until recently he had to be helped to get into and out of his car. It is adapted to enable a disabled person to drive, The other day he got into his car entirely on his own and drove some 12 miles to a nearby town. Got out on his own and went into a shop to make a purchase. No wheelchair anymore! 1142/6
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